I started out nursing Little Man like I had done with MJ but after a week and a half found out that no matter what I would have done nursing wasn't working for him. It broke my heart because I thought I was going to lose that closeness that I had with him. I wanted him to have the same opportunity that MJ had when she was born. It was a difficult decision but when you are faced with a child that wasn't gaining weight the way he was supposed to and was in pain because he wasn't getting the nourishment that he needed it makes the painful decision easier. I've always been an advocate for nursing especially with all the good it did for MJ but I'm also a realist that either not everyone can do it and as my pediatrician and OB told me it is not for all babies. The most important thing is that the child is eating, growing health, and is happy. We had LM on Similac Sensitive and he was eating but was still gassy and fussy but with a new problem being a rash on his face and instead of a little spit-up he was in essence throwing up the milk he was drinking. Nothing smells worse than curdled formula! Friday night we thought it was just baby acne and that, like his sister before him, was what our pediatrician called a happy spitter. Saturday morning we knew that wasn't the case. The bumps on his face had gotten worse and he had gone from spitting up to throwing up the formula and nothing made him happy. After a call to his pediatrician, who is the most awesome person in the world or as MJ calls him her best friend, he was switched to soy milk with orders to see him on Monday if we were still having issues. Happy to report that LM is doing awesome now and LOVES his new milk! Sorry Rambo but another member of the family has been added to the dairy-free lifestyle!
Through all of this I have been fortunate to have my family and my faith to support me. When I was going through the pain of having to accept that nursing was not for LM I read a post a church friend of mine had shared on facebook and found a lot of comfort. It changed my view on motherhood and helped me through a difficult time. The post was based on Matthew 25:34-40 when Jesus says:
"Come, you who are blessed by my Father. Inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, a stranger and you welcomed me, naked and you clothed me, ill and you cared for me, in prison and you visited me."
Then the righteous will answer him and say, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you,or thirsty and give you a drink? When did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? When did we see you ill or in prison, and visit you?
And the king will say to them in reply, 'Amen, I say to you, whatever you did for one of these least brothers of mine, you did for me.'
I challenge you to read the post Naked Love from momlifenow.com and not be able to relate these verses with motherhood. Now every time I start to feel overwhelmed or question why I had another child (during crying fits at 2 am who doesn't) I remember the above scripture and it helps me give him comfort and strength.
Before he was born I made him two diagonal comfort blankets that were on Lion Brand's site but two weeks before he was born, I know nothing like waiting to the last minute, I decided I wanted to design him a special blanket. After going through I don't know how many stitch pattern books and websites I settled on the simple basketweave stitch pattern on Lion Brand's site. I decided that I wanted something more special that just a garter stitch border and decided on a moss stitch border. I started two weeks before my date for the c-section and finished the blanket two nights before LM was to be born. Besides the hospital blanket it was his first blanket and I have to say it has become his most favorite blanket. All the nurses in the hospital loved the blanket and the couple that were knitters were asking for the pattern which I happily shared. This is a pretty simple pattern that for the experienced knitter can be used as a fast and mindless knitting project when watching tv and easy enough for a beginner knitter.
Printable Mossy Basketweave Blanket Pattern
Bernat Baby Sport in Sprite
US 10 circular knitting needles
Moss Stitch (even # of sts)
Row 1: *k1, p1; rep from * to end
Row 2: *k1, p1; rep from * to end
Row 3: *p1, k1; rep from * to end
Row 4: *p1, k1; rep from * to end
Basketweave Stitch (mult of 8)
Row 1: k all sts
Row 2: *k4, p4; rep from * to end
Row 3: *k4, p4; rep rom * to end
Row 4: *k4, p4; rep from * to end
Row 5: *k4, p4; rep from * to end
Row 6: *k4, p4; rep from * to end
Row 7: k all sts
Row 8: *p4, k4; rep from * to end
Row 9: *p4, k4; rep from * to end
Row 10: *p4, k4; rep from * to end
Row 11: *p4, k4; rep from * to end
Row 12: *p4, k4; rep from * to end
4 sts per inch, 5 rows per inch, 16 sts in 4 inches in stockinette stitch
Blanket size 34 x 36
CO 136 sts
Knit 2 repeats of border
Row 1: (k1, p1)x4; pm, k to last 8 sts, pm, (k1, p1) x4
Row 2: (k1, p1)x4; *k4, p4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (k1, p1)x4
Row 3: (p1, k1)x4; *k4, p4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (p1, k1)x4
Row 4: (p1, k1)x4; *k4, p4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (p1, k1)x4
Row 5: (k1, p1)x4; *k4, p4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (k1, p1)x4
Row 6: (k1, p1)x4; *k4, p4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (k1, p1)x4
Row 7: (p1, k1)x4; k to last 8 sts, (p1, k1)x4
Row 8: (p1, k1)x4, *p4,k4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (p1, k1)x4
Row 9: (k1, p1)x4, *p4, k4; rep from * to last 8 sts (k1, p1)x4
Row 10: (k1, p1)x4, *p4, k4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (k1, p1)x4
Row 11: (p1, k1)x4, *p4, k4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (p1, k1)x4
Row 12: (p1, k1)x4, *p4, k4; rep from * to last 8 sts, (p1, k1)x4
Repeat rows 1-12 for a total of 15 repeats.
Next repeat row 1, then complete 2 repeats of border.